5 YEARS CANCER FREE

 I recently celebrated 5 YEARS CANCER FREE, I have been looking forward to this since the day my oncologist told me I had cancer.  I can vividly remember walking into the hospital knees shaking, I have never been so terrified in all my life.  I laid on the table and silently cried, not because of the pain but because of the fear.  I knew in the pit of my stomach that I had cancer.

That gut wrenching fear never goes away, it does get better.  I still feel that fear every time I walk into a doctors office, get a blood draw or feel any ache or pain.  The anxiety and fear and be absolutely debilitating at times.  It lurks like an ugly monster waiting to attack.

5 years CANCER FREE is a huge milestone for a breast cancer survivor.  Yes, I definitely celebrated but this year was bittersweet.  As I thought of how far I have come, I kept thinking about my "pink sisters".  I thought about how I had, had my last date with chemo but that some of my friends would never get to experience being "deported" (the surgery to remove your chemo port), because some of them would be on chemo for the remainder of their lives.  Cancer is a nasty selfish bit*h it doesn't care how much your friends and family love you.  Cancer can take away so so much for a person but it can't take away the love that we have for each other. 

So I CELEBRATE my beautiful friends that are currently battling this beast.  You women are my hero's 

a hero
   is an ordinary individual
   who finds the strength
    to persevere and endure
    in spire of
     overwhelming obstacles.

-Christopher Reeve 

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