-- So here we are in October, also known as Breast Cancer Awareness Month. Honestly, this is a weird confusing time for me.
FIRST: I'm a pink lover, I just love pink -- always have and always will, Regardless of breast cancer, pink will always be my thing. So YES, you will see me in pink in October and for that matter all year long. There, is a large part of me that agrees that breast cancer truly does need and require awareness, because we are still seeing A LOT of women being diagnosed late stage. However, that's where things get uncomfortable for me. Everyone wants to hear a great story, something strong and inspiring and they want it packaged in a pretty pink bow. Unfortunately, that's not the reality. Breast cancer, any cancer for that matter, is scary, ugly and traumatic.
I can remember when I went through chemotherapy, I was bald, boobless and sick as hell. I had dark bags under my eyes and my skin had a funky tone to it. But, when we went out, I threw on my boobs, an amazing wig, lots of makeup and some lashes. EVERYONE we came in contact with that knew me would comment about how great I looked and how, modern medicine made chemotherapy so much more tolerable. Of course, I would say thank you and that yes things were going great. Although on the inside I wanted to SCREAM, because I felt horrible, I wanted to rip off my wig and lashes and expose the truth to everyone. But I didn't because that isn't what people want to see. They don't really want to know about the pain, fear and physical scars that cancer has left. They just want to see a false advertisement, and fake feelings so that no one is uncomfortable. I can remember telling my husband, I so tired of "being strong", I just want to be scared shitless and for that to also be okay and accepted.
So with all that being said, I think the whole Pink washing, etc is two-fold. I will always wear pink, BUT I think that the truth, this hideous reality of cancer, also needs to be shared. I also think that MORE funds need to be raised for research WE NEED A CURE.